Monday, July 29, 2013

UR Ex...

 







Your 'ex' is like your karma. Its impossible to wish her off. However hard you may try. She will at least take that 12.5 kb of space in your existence. Just like the desktop icon you may never use, but its a default icon, co-existing with the other icons you use. She can bring back old memories, act as a benchmark, act as a medicine, act as a warning/disclaimer, act as a motivator, act as an anchor, act as a virtual consultant, act as a reminder and act as an insulator from the reality of the world you exist in. She is a lesson. A lesson you did learn the hard way Yes, it hurts. But what's life without a little sorrow, without a little hurt and without a little darkness? Today, it doesn't matter what happened. But it was necessary. It was meant to be that way. No, its not God's way of humbling you. But its his way of giving you an orientation in detachment. The essence of life, the ultimate truth of life. Its not so much about companionship, love, feelings or sex. Its about 'notions'. The ones you have in your flash memory. The ones which get auto refreshed.The ones which have a larger font size than others. The ones which are italicized. She is now  a part of your existence. You may want to take her off like your beard. But she will come back to you just like your beard, in a day or two. Sometimes she makes you look bad. When you trim her down , she may make you look good. You may re-shape her according to your convenience. She may turn grey.But she exits And she will continue to do so. She will crop up. She will trouble you, tease you, please you, warn you and challenge you. You cannot  'force shut down' her. She's necessary. She's natural and she's evident. She lingers on. She's your body odor. There's no way you can take her off. And deep within, you like her. You despise her, but you are contented and she is, too.

It doesn't matter if you did it. It doesn't matter if she did it. It doesn't matter if there was a choice or not.  It doesn't matter if it just happened. All that matters, is what exists.  All that matters is a peaceful co-existence. Doubt it not, even today, 'you' are to her what 'she' is to you. At least that what's wrong in believing so? What's wrong in feeling so? Let her linger on. Let her live on , in you.....

Monday, July 8, 2013